Psalm 69:16-17
Answer me, Lord, for Your faithful love is good; in keeping with Your great compassion,
turn to me. 17 Don’t hide Your face from Your servant, for I am in distress. Answer me quickly!
I’m there! Yes, I’ve been there before, but not like I am now. The migraine pain is overwhelming. It consumes my thoughts; yet, I know it can be a spirit of distraction too, and I rebuke that in Jesus name. I refuse to give anything more attention and focus than Jesus and His will over my life.
However, the Holy Spirit convicted me as He spoke, “Your words sounds great, but your faith is poor. I cried, “Me, Lord?” I continued, “Surely when you search my heart you don’t see lack of faith?” “Of course I do!” He exclaimed. “You have all the answers for healing yet you refuse to ask Me because you truly don’t believe.” The Spirit continued, “You are even good at encouraging others to seek their own blessings and to claim their own healing; however, you my child – don’t believe I’m capable of these miracles in you!”
—“But Lord, I, I, um, I know too much about the science, the nerves, the inflammation, the…” The Spirit interrupts, “Who stitched you together in your mother’s womb?”
—“Yes, Lord, but we are in broken bodies, and I have just accepted the fact that this is my thorn.” “My son, your ways are not My ways!”
—“I do believe that, Father, and I humble myself before the throne. But, I……I have lived with this pain for so long that it has to be a part of who I am.” “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord, “Now be still!”
I most certainly have a deeper understanding of claiming a victory! I also have a deeper understanding of prayer and petition. I want to say, “Shame on me” for failing in such a spiritual way. Yet, the Potter used this to shape and mold me into a more mature believer.
My prayers resound like this Psalm above. Hear me Lord! I am Your child and You are My God! You are bigger than anything my finite mind can create. You can do far more than we can ever imagine. Therefore, as a child of the King, I claim your victory, healing, and power over my life. You say call and therefore I shout! “Don’t hide your face from your servant.” Your healing will be used to glorify your name and further your kingdom as I humbly submit to Your authority and your will alone. In Jesus name I pray in the unity of the Holy Spirit – Amen.
Question: Are you lacking faith for your own healing?
Thankful,
Christian Armetta
My Deliverer 
I have so lived this. It sounds so easy to say “Let go and Let God!”
I know the reality of that deeply.
I also know that I wasn’t successful until I reached the end my own research, my own “figuring”, my own efforts which were tying God’s hands.
It can’t be Him if it’s something I figured out.
When I sat in that office that day at the end of my 7th or 8th procedure that summer and cried over the report “well, I can see something is wrong, but it’s not this [current testing goal]… again… I finally truly gave up.
God healed me that Sunday at church.
He really is waiting for you to let Him be Him.
My prayers are with you.
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I cannot tell you how much that touches me!! I’ve been told that over and over. I know I must heed the call! My science brain wants to research and find the answers myself but God awaits – Faith and humility! Thank you so much
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