Deuteronomy 6:6–7 (NIV)
“These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up.”

My heart wants to start by saying, “Dear diary…” but I’m just not that kind of writer. However, I would be lying if I didn’t say that’s how I really feel. I haven’t written much lately because, honestly, I’m afraid. Yes, fearful of what may come out. I’ve avoided this journal entry for months because it’s hard. No, I’m not trying to be overly dramatic, but in less than two weeks, we’ll drop my only child off at college. Sure, countless people have done this before, but it’s different when you are the one saying goodbye. So… “Dear diary,” be kind to me and simply listen.
Lately, I’ve been remembering childhood scenes that now feel like prophecy. When I was in grade school, we used to play marbles at recess, back when the days were long and the biggest decisions were which marble to use and whether to play for keeps. We brought our best marbles from home, tucked away like treasure in our pockets. There was something sacred about those matches: crouching in the dirt, eyeing the target, flicking your thumb with complete focus and heart. The sound of glass tapping glass was like a tiny bell of joy. I didn’t know it then, but those games were practice—practice in letting go, in risk, in aiming carefully and hoping for the best. Somehow, they taught us that something small and round could hold weight, memory, and meaning. And now, all these years later, marbles are back in my hands again, but for a very different reason.
Each year, my pastor shares a powerful marble message that speaks to the fleeting nature of time with our children. The visual is jarring: large jars filled with marbles, each one representing a week in the eighteen years we have had them at home. Even with young children, the jars already seem far too empty. It’s a perspective reset, a silent whisper that time is constantly slipping. As young parents, we find ourselves longing for rest, for the next phase, until we realize, too late, that we wished away the most precious moments.
In full transparency, I was one of those parents. Life moved fast. Mostly, we lived on soccer fields and highways, juggling late-night homework, takeout in the car, and alarm clocks that rang far too early. But if you asked me now, I’d say I miss every bit of it. I miss glancing into the rearview mirror and seeing my son asleep, hair tousled, dreams unknown. My parents used to say, “No matter how old you get, you’re still someone’s baby boy.” I get it now. I understand it in my bones as I look at the young man who now stands taller than me. He is grown, yes…but still mine.
I’ve been holding on to these last two marbles for years. I knew these last two weeks would come. I honestly can’t believe I’m standing in it now. One marble, I send soaring with a flick of my hand, full of encouragement, wisdom, and the fierce love of a parent who has given everything and still wants to give more. As it rolls forward, it disturbs the dandelion tufts, the image I hold so dearly. Each tuft floats like a holy whisper, representing gifts, prayers, and truths planted by God. May they scatter with divine precision, settling into soil that’s already been prepared just for him. May God’s breath carry them with strength and gentleness. May angels go ahead and behind him, protecting what has been sown.
The second and final marble I give you slowly, deliberately. This one is sacred. It marks your last week under my roof, and I place it in your hand with an open palm and an aching heart. I gently close your fingers around it, not just as a symbol of goodbye, but as a commission. This marble carries a legacy. It holds the name of Jesus Christ etched into your spirit and my name carried on your back. Let it remind you of where you come from and of the purpose set before you. You come from a family rooted in faith, service, and healing, where many before you chose the path of healthcare and pharmacy as a way to care for others and honor God. Now, you continue that legacy, stepping into the same calling with the potential to go even further. May you be blessed in your future as a pharmacist, not only with success, but with the divine intelligence, drive, and desire that God has instilled in you for such a time as this. And one day, when it is your turn to place a marble into your own child’s jar, I pray you remember this moment. God’s blessings stretch far beyond this goodbye. They are not confined to one generation, one jar, or one hand. They are eternal.
And so, as I close this journal entry, I realize that this is not a story about endings. It’s a story about release. About trusting the aim, about flicking the marble even when your hand trembles. It’s about remembering how we learned to play in the dirt with glass spheres that somehow held the weight of hope. And it’s about believing, truly believing, that love doesn’t end when the jar empties. It multiplies. Rolls forward. Finds new hands. New jars. New soil. And just maybe…[pause, breathe]…that’s how we never really say goodbye.
Dear diary, thank you for listening.
Christian Armetta
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